I've been silent for a long time.
I was diagnosed as neurodivergent (NDV) in the 90's, when the science (and the 'diagnosis') were cutting edge. I rode the wave of early medications and early treatments.
I shut down internally, lost my way, forgot who I was and grappled through depression and anger for many years.
I truly believed that I was a broken thing in an otherwise perfect world.
At 25 I had a surgical operation for something unrelated. The nurse asked me, why are you still on dexamphetamine?
I quit cold turkey the next day.
Ten+ years on meds ended overnight.
For the next few weeks I couldn't think my way out of a paper bag, brain fog so bad it felt like walking around in a perpetual haze, constantly fatigued and helpless.
With glacial slowness I rebuilt my shattered mind and body. I learned to temper and then tame the urge for instant gratification and taught myself how to think again. I worked on concentration, processing and emotional control.
Fast forward 15 years of brutal life lessons—including a car accident, breaking up a lifelong friendship and, after months of agonizing existential pain … a kundalini awakening that blew my mind.
Now in my 40's I realize it is not me that was broken.
I never was, and I'm betting you never were either.
It's the system. Our Western world is designed for a specific kind of thought—the kind that diagnoses and pathologizes anything that doesn't fit a rigid, routine, carefully curated and institutionalized definition of 'normal'.
I'm not here to fix you, sell you enlightenment or a 5 step program.
I'm just here to reflect what I learned the hard way, in the hopes maybe you don't have to.
The rage, the frustrations with draconian systems, policies and institutions? I get it.
Your NDV isn't a disorder—it's the early warning system the world desperately needs right now.
Here at Divergent Clarity we discuss the revelation that turning what appears to be a curse in the modern (neurotypical) world, into a gift—feeling the chaos without drowning and living unfiltered in a filtered world. Here NDV isn’t just accepted, it’s honored and cherished.
If any of this resonates, say hello below—I’d love to hear from you.
If not, that’s okay too.
Talk soon.